Big Kid Reality

So we just had the walk through for my new place. I'm really moving out... and not like 1 year abroad kinda deal... but the real building my own home as a grown up kinda deal. Not saying this'll be my forever home but its a start.

I will be among those suckers who gotta pay mortgage. Mwahahaha.

I'm super excited but at the same time, I've never had this big of an expense before. Praying to God that He'll be providing me with my needs. Because like I asked before, if I wasn't gonna be able to afford it then Lord please turn down my mortgage application. But it looks like it went through. So God must have some big plans for me. Of course, I'll still be doing my fair share of hard work.

So so so so so can't wait to move in. 24/7 of such an amazing view. That fabulous feeling of decorating your own place from scratch. Color themes!!! Furniture shopping. And the best part; inviting the people you want and chilling at your own place and not having to worry about other family members having to hold your night back.

THANK YOU LORD for making this new years resolution come true.

Its not like that anymore

Aside from officially starting my career, December has been an awesome month. I am also back with my overnight team. This time a little smarter and avoiding drama when I can. That being said, I am no longer infatuated with CD but I do get curious once in  a while. I often think what if so and so happened this way, how would things be. Its kinda weird because I feel like I won't be able to move on without figuring out the answer, whether I like the outcome or not. But its probably more because I really don't wanna feel confused like that again and not so much because of CD himself.

A lot of people are curious as to when I'll be introducing someone to them. I know they mean well but its not like its my choice for how things are the way they are. So instead of going nuts over this, I'll just deal with what I know I can... which at the moment is making myself financially independent. I figure by the time he comes along, there's one less problem for us to fight about.

So here's to a brand new year. 2015 was the year I always felt many changes are bound to happen (see 5 year plan of 2013). Though I guess career hunting came sooner than expected. Anyway, here's the new 5 year plan of 2015.

2015: move out; licensing exams
2016: hermit mode
2017: travel
2018: engagement?
2019: marriage? (yeah kinda aiming high here lol)

A not so new year resolution

Back in the days, I did make a list of resolutions every new years. I'd probably have about 10 things in each list. To summarize, I've probably only successfully accomplished 3 of those and it wasn't even on the year I made it for.

1.) Get my driver's license. Pretty sure I promise this myself at 17 and I did get it only it expired and I haven't really tried again until I was 20.
2.) Lose weight and maintain the ideal weight. Still an on going project and probably forever will. Lost roughly 30 lbs since my university graduation. 15 more lbs till I reach my ideal weight.
3.) Live abroad by myself. This was more of a bucket list but I added it officially on my resolution list after grad. Who knew a few months later it'd come true. South Korea is now my 3rd home.

Hopefully to add a fourth one on the accomplished resolution list is to learn how to play a musical instrument. It's pretty hard as no one in the family has any musical talent. Nor was it ever fostered. It's not that we couldn't afford it but it certainly wasn't a priority. Since I now have free time and am blessed by God by not having any debts, I think its time to make that resolution come true. I'm borrowing my best friend's guitar for now since we're sorta on the same boat... wants to learn how to play an instrument but its not a priority thus guitar is now collecting dust. If I really do get into it, you bet I'll be buying my own.

Learning will be difficult as I absolutely haven't retained any info from my last music class which was way back in elementary. I'll have to learn how to read a sheet music; somehow translating those notes into sounds on the guitar; remembering finger positions and how to make what chord; tuning my ear to tell the difference between pitches and other musical terms you can think of. It'll really be from scratch basically. Now, I don't intend to be a genius composer/song-writer here but the gist of this resolution is to be able to play my favorite songs.

This passion honestly stems back from listening to OPM songs. I find it to be more soulful, the lyrics do make you emotional and the instrumentals are more eloquent. Even if someone didn't understand Tagalog, I think they can tell from the singer's voice and the instruments what emotion is being conveyed. So it makes sense that the first song I want to be able to play is OPM.

Forevermore by Side A is my ultimate favorite OPM which I sing over and over again on my karaoke. Sure, I might've botched up the song but I love it so much that I don't care. CD happens to like this song too but he plays it on the guitar, not sing it. (Lemme say it now that I'm learning how to play the guitar / this song not because of CD but for me)

Hopefully I'll be able to make a video of me playing this song on the guitar. I promise no singing involved!