Its not like that anymore

Aside from officially starting my career, December has been an awesome month. I am also back with my overnight team. This time a little smarter and avoiding drama when I can. That being said, I am no longer infatuated with CD but I do get curious once in  a while. I often think what if so and so happened this way, how would things be. Its kinda weird because I feel like I won't be able to move on without figuring out the answer, whether I like the outcome or not. But its probably more because I really don't wanna feel confused like that again and not so much because of CD himself.

A lot of people are curious as to when I'll be introducing someone to them. I know they mean well but its not like its my choice for how things are the way they are. So instead of going nuts over this, I'll just deal with what I know I can... which at the moment is making myself financially independent. I figure by the time he comes along, there's one less problem for us to fight about.

So here's to a brand new year. 2015 was the year I always felt many changes are bound to happen (see 5 year plan of 2013). Though I guess career hunting came sooner than expected. Anyway, here's the new 5 year plan of 2015.

2015: move out; licensing exams
2016: hermit mode
2017: travel
2018: engagement?
2019: marriage? (yeah kinda aiming high here lol)

The 5 Year Plan

If I had to describe myself, I admit to being a bit of a control freak. I like being organized and prepared but I'm also open to the fact that many things in life are unpredictable and out of our control. Still, I enjoy gazing at my potential future... viewing the highlights of each chapter of my life. Somehow that led to my 5 Year Planning.

Basically, its attempting to finish 5 important achievements in 5 years (so roughly one per year). There is an ideal order to these achievements but I like that I can just bump one down or up to make room for the others. Once that 1 year is over, another 1 achievement will be added (or upgraded) for the next year. Its pretty awesome because when I read my old blogs and saw what my then 5 Year Plan was, I got so amazed that I actually managed to do the whole thing... even if it wasn't the ideal order I originally planned out. Of course, not everything is perfect. I still have this letter I wrote when I was 14, it was meant for my 18 year old self. It talked about the many things I hope to have accomplished by 18 and even some lecturing from the younger me. Anyway, let's just say I was a little too optimistic back then.

Now, I can kinda say I'm a little smarter when it comes to planning. My favorite part is just having something to look forward to. Even if there are chances of it being a disappointment. There's a reason for when things don't turn out the way we want and when we do find out, we'll be glad we are where we are. There's also gonna be times where its just down time. Nothing major happening because realistically, you gotta work your butt off to make those other achievements come true. I call these times hermit mode.

So, here's my current 5 Year Plan. A little something for my future self to be proud about (or laugh at):

2013: integrating back to Canadian society (just came back from working abroad)
2014: back to school; travel
2015: career hunting; moving out
2016: hermit mode (gotta pay those bills)
2017: engagement (a little silly to have it here but I always figure its the right age to do so)