One Milestone at a Time

I'm slowly learning to be patient. I'm trying not to worry too much why some things haven't happened yet in my life. I strongly believe that God has a reason for everything and all I have to do is have faith and wait. Of course, I still get that pang of jealousy whenever I see good things happening to others. Its not that I don't think those people deserve it.... in my head, I'm always just analyzing why they got those good things before me. This is especially the case when I feel that I've waited for it longer or worked on it harder or etc. Then I realized, there are somethings that I have which these very people don't have but want to have. So to the things that I do have and have yet to have... I am very thankful for.

Thank you for being alive, for having a home, family, friends, a really good job, an education, my health, my faith on my God and all these things I take for granted. I hope that others will be encouraged to be thankful for the things they also have and yet to have.

For now, the most recent milestone I wish to accomplish is to own my own home. I've already accepted that it won't be a dream house like the ones I used to draw when I was a kid. After all, I live in the 2nd most expensive city in the world. But the idea of being independent is something I've always respected and wanted. I got a bit of taste of it when I lived in Korea and am really missing just having my own place.

This Thursday I'll be meeting with a financial advisor so I guess that's when I'll know what God's plans are for me in terms of moving out.

When good things happen to other people

Its that time of the... life... again. Guess its bound to happen more often especially at this age. Mid-twenties is like when everything major in life happens. You or someone you know (of the same age) graduates from university; they get engaged; get married  or have a kid or two. Its like all these wonderful milestones happening one by one. I'm seriously happy for anyone who manages to achieve these things. But at the same time, I'm reminded of the things that has yet to happen to me.

I'm not saying no good thing has happened to me... in fact, there are tons. But that one thing that you'd think everyone gets to eventually have... that still hasn't happened to me. So here I am, waiting for that one thing that everyone else I know had in high school (elementary even for others). Now those same people are like 2-3 milestones ahead of me. I feel so left behind. I feel like nothing has changed. There's nothing new to share whenever I see an old friend and they say "hey, what's up?".

Anyway, sorry for being gloomy. Just had to get this out of my system. Must go back to studying now. Exam week then finally some chillax week after. Can't believe semester 1 is over.