That Was Unexpected

So, still no definite answer with my financial advisor. But for some reason I'm not all too panicky about it. I figure, if its meant to be then great... if its not then at least I know I'm just not ready to shell out for my own mortgage.

One thing that did happen that was out of the blue was a letter I got from my college. Apparently I've been selected to receive a scholarship. At first I was confused because I'm done school and I haven't applied for any scholarship. I also felt someone else could use it for a better cause. Maybe pay their student loan since mine is done. But then I realized I still do have this expensive exam coming in September and if I do end up being approved for mortgage, I most definitely can use any extra money coming my way.

I'm a little uncomfortable though about this award ceremony as it is kinda random. Its not officially a graduation ceremony. I don't think I'll even be seeing my classmates there. I'm not even sure if my family and friends should come out for this event. Its 1.5 hour event right in the middle of a working day. But at the same time, its a little bit sad knowing that I'm going by myself.

I also googled the award itself. Its apparently based on academic and personal achievement which is decided by the Dean. I've never met the Dean though so its either I was selected by my teachers or I got the highest marks in class. Either way, I am super thankful for this provision God has given me. I can remember having to apply for scholarships when I was high school and cry coz I felt that my GPA was never good enough. But now when I haven't even asked for it, God just gave it to me. Thank you, Lord.

When good things happen to other people

Its that time of the... life... again. Guess its bound to happen more often especially at this age. Mid-twenties is like when everything major in life happens. You or someone you know (of the same age) graduates from university; they get engaged; get married  or have a kid or two. Its like all these wonderful milestones happening one by one. I'm seriously happy for anyone who manages to achieve these things. But at the same time, I'm reminded of the things that has yet to happen to me.

I'm not saying no good thing has happened to me... in fact, there are tons. But that one thing that you'd think everyone gets to eventually have... that still hasn't happened to me. So here I am, waiting for that one thing that everyone else I know had in high school (elementary even for others). Now those same people are like 2-3 milestones ahead of me. I feel so left behind. I feel like nothing has changed. There's nothing new to share whenever I see an old friend and they say "hey, what's up?".

Anyway, sorry for being gloomy. Just had to get this out of my system. Must go back to studying now. Exam week then finally some chillax week after. Can't believe semester 1 is over.