One Milestone at a Time

I'm slowly learning to be patient. I'm trying not to worry too much why some things haven't happened yet in my life. I strongly believe that God has a reason for everything and all I have to do is have faith and wait. Of course, I still get that pang of jealousy whenever I see good things happening to others. Its not that I don't think those people deserve it.... in my head, I'm always just analyzing why they got those good things before me. This is especially the case when I feel that I've waited for it longer or worked on it harder or etc. Then I realized, there are somethings that I have which these very people don't have but want to have. So to the things that I do have and have yet to have... I am very thankful for.

Thank you for being alive, for having a home, family, friends, a really good job, an education, my health, my faith on my God and all these things I take for granted. I hope that others will be encouraged to be thankful for the things they also have and yet to have.

For now, the most recent milestone I wish to accomplish is to own my own home. I've already accepted that it won't be a dream house like the ones I used to draw when I was a kid. After all, I live in the 2nd most expensive city in the world. But the idea of being independent is something I've always respected and wanted. I got a bit of taste of it when I lived in Korea and am really missing just having my own place.

This Thursday I'll be meeting with a financial advisor so I guess that's when I'll know what God's plans are for me in terms of moving out.

The 5 Year Plan

If I had to describe myself, I admit to being a bit of a control freak. I like being organized and prepared but I'm also open to the fact that many things in life are unpredictable and out of our control. Still, I enjoy gazing at my potential future... viewing the highlights of each chapter of my life. Somehow that led to my 5 Year Planning.

Basically, its attempting to finish 5 important achievements in 5 years (so roughly one per year). There is an ideal order to these achievements but I like that I can just bump one down or up to make room for the others. Once that 1 year is over, another 1 achievement will be added (or upgraded) for the next year. Its pretty awesome because when I read my old blogs and saw what my then 5 Year Plan was, I got so amazed that I actually managed to do the whole thing... even if it wasn't the ideal order I originally planned out. Of course, not everything is perfect. I still have this letter I wrote when I was 14, it was meant for my 18 year old self. It talked about the many things I hope to have accomplished by 18 and even some lecturing from the younger me. Anyway, let's just say I was a little too optimistic back then.

Now, I can kinda say I'm a little smarter when it comes to planning. My favorite part is just having something to look forward to. Even if there are chances of it being a disappointment. There's a reason for when things don't turn out the way we want and when we do find out, we'll be glad we are where we are. There's also gonna be times where its just down time. Nothing major happening because realistically, you gotta work your butt off to make those other achievements come true. I call these times hermit mode.

So, here's my current 5 Year Plan. A little something for my future self to be proud about (or laugh at):

2013: integrating back to Canadian society (just came back from working abroad)
2014: back to school; travel
2015: career hunting; moving out
2016: hermit mode (gotta pay those bills)
2017: engagement (a little silly to have it here but I always figure its the right age to do so)