Shit Has Hit the Fan

I repeat!

Shit has hit the fan!!

What the heck is going on at work? I thought we're under budget? Why the heck have they opened a new position?

One of my co-worker went on mat leave and her replacement just finished training. Another co-worker leaves and the new replacement has just started training. Then another co-worker is coming back from mat leave so she needs to be re-trained as well. And now this? A totally brand new job position! One which no current casual from our team can pick up because we're all pretty low ranking in seniority.

So I'm already on the lowest of the low and now I just got pushed down not once, not twice but thrice!

This is not looking very good at all.

Insert swear words *(&$W%!*@)#%$!)#@F

The Calm Before Shit Hits The Fan

Sooooooo I'm slightly doing better compared to last week. I've done around $600 worth of damage. Surprisingly on things I actually do need and not just on recklessly must have now. I think it helped that I finally found out the completion date for my new condo. Woohoo! Something good to look forward to. That oughta keep me distracted till November. I just hope that my shifts increase from now on so that I can pay for this new responsibility. I'm sure I wouldn't be able to do careless spending anymore. Every price tag will now incur a good 5 minute or more thought process.

I'm so excited but also scared.

But most of all. I'm thankful because I know God provides for His children. =)

F

I just did my last portion for my licensing exam.

Annndddd I wanna kill myself.

I'm hella depressed and probably would be until those results get released on November.

You know what the sad part is though. Its not the lack of content that I studied. Coz honestly, I couldn't even think of what else I would study if I have to re-take it. Its my damn nerves.

I've done exams before where I'm a wreck but at least those are written exams and I get a good 5-10 minutes to calm myself. Whereas this exam is more practical and interactive and I've got more than 2 sets of eyes staring at me while I do my best to answer questions.

There were breaks in between stations but I used that to either pray or bang my head when no one's looking.

What would be sadder if I failed this is that I found out one of my classmates passed it and she was nearly failing in school back then.

So tomorrow, I might just go pig out and shop like crazy with my best friends to calm myself down and forget this nightmare.

What's done is done.

Its Starting to Look a Bit Like Fall

Fall fall fall. My favorite season of all.

I'm sure I've mentioned this before. How could anyone not like fall? The leaves change to these wonderful colors. The weather is just right with the sun shining but not burning. Its the perfect temperature to cuddle. And although I drink coffee and tea regardless of the season, something about fall makes these hot beverages extra wonderful. Besides food and drinks, there's the fashion to admire. Fall jackets, wool coats, parkas... they're my absolute favorite article of clothing. Next to the boots whether ankle or knee high.

The ultimate best part of fall of course? SEASON PREMIERS!!! I just badly need to know which Stark would be dying next. Or if Jo and Alex would be the only happy ending from last season's Grey's. In fact, I'm still trying to figure out how the women from Walking Dead are surviving without tampons and pads... and if they are extra vulnerable during their time of the month? Its also been so long since I've last seen my TV hubby Jensen Ackles, better known as Dean Winchester. Will they be revealing a new clone to join Orphan Black's clone club... although I really am liking the change in dynamics by adding the ditzy one.

Oh fall. I do hope you come sooner and stay longer.

Frankly. I'm done with wearing shorts and flip flops. And if I may be an honest woman... lemme just say shaving every damn day just to go out, even if its just grocery shopping, truly sucks. Especially when you now got a niece who's old enough to complain about "pokey" legs.