I'm my own therapist

Probably not recommended to anyone.. ever. But I kind like how this played out for me.

So I've been having some real good days lately but amid all that, I've also been having some saddening thoughts. Some of these thoughts I'm not even really sure what they are exactly or why I'm having them in the first place. I guess they're thoughts that come from problems that have stemmed from older problems and so on.

Well, last night I had a dream. I don't remember the whole contents of it but I remember feeling really great afterwards. In the dream, I was sorta hiding in a closet and crying. I was very frustrated but I'm not sure why. Then suddenly CD appears and sat down beside me. He was patting my back as I cried. I just kept crying and I swear at this point its because of how I'm still not sure of how I feel for him. Then he asked me what's wrong. But suddenly I started blurting out things that totally wasn't about him. Like how I don't feel accomplished despite the all the things I've done. It went on and on and I basically am just saying to him that I feel that I'm not good enough for anything. He listened to all my venting and then wiped my tears with his bare hands and said that I am more than good enough. At that point, I think my heart started pounding too much that I actually woke up. I actually did have a bit of tears in my eyes too. But I got that sensation of immense relief, like I really did just pour out all of my soul and let go of everything.

I don't know in real life if I could ever tell him all that or to anyone else for that matter. I didn't even think I had those kinds of thoughts. Denial on my side perhaps? But I do know what he said in the dream is scripted as how I wanted to hear it. However, I can't deny how real it felt. Talking it out, having someone wipe your tears and then telling you that you are more than good enough.

I'm such a hopeless romantic.