Monday, 16 February 2015

Happy Almost Valentines

Aside from working 2 shifts back to back, I had a pretty dang awesome Valentines. And yes, its coz CD was there.

They were handing out Valentines cards to all team members at work and he so happens to hold mine. He said my name, smiled and gave me the card. Of course I know the card isn't really from him and it wasn't unique (in a sense that everybody else got one too) but it still made me happy. I joked right away that if this was a red envelope for Chinese New Years, the money part is missing. And that just made him smile all the more which made me smile in turn.

The next day, some of us decided to meet up for a mini-get together. I think I'm most glad that its like we were hanging out the way things were before the drama. We could joke around again. We talked about where everyone is heading after leaving the company. He still wouldn't tell anyone where he'll be working but he kept saying he is leaving soon. That pretty much made me really sad. I would definitely love to have one last grand hang out with him. But luckily the group herder (the older brother / almost uncle of the group) loves to organize get-togethers and everyone pretty much agreed to meeting up at least once a month to catch up with each other's lives.

As we're all heading home, him and another co-worker got a ride from me. I parked 4-5 blocks away from the cafe we were at and it got cold that night. As we were walking he noticed that I was shivering and offered his jacket. Of course I turned it down coz I know he was just wearing short sleeves underneath whereas I had one layer of long sleeves at least. We walked a bit more and he said (not asked but said) "if we're still far away from your car, I'm giving you my jacket".

KABOOM! Yes, my brain just exploded. This is like the scene most girls think of when there's a budding romance story involved. Of course, it wasn't as romantic coz someone else was with us and my car was already there. But nonetheless I enjoyed the car ride with him. As usual though he didn't wanna get dropped off at his home. He said he wanted to walk anyway so we drove to my house instead. Guess it sorta worked out coz when I parked my car in the garage, he stayed back a bit to try and help me fix my bluetooth/FM transmitter, which now I know is hopelessly broken.

Now, I'm pretty curious why he doesn't like getting dropped off at his house. Coz it definitely wouldn't be out of the way. Or is that his way of making sure I got home safely. Well whatever the case, I'm glad how today and yesterday turned out.

Ooohhhh, I also found out that we both want to watch exactly the same 2 movies that are showing right now. That probably was my cue to ask him but I couldn't coz GF was there and I don't wanna cause any potential dramas.

PS: I lost 4 pounds after finally letting myself like CD again, coincidence? Me thinks not. Ha! Another plus to having a crush is the motivation to feel/look good. Only 17 lbs left to lose from what I gained from school.

Monday, 9 February 2015

Monica Oh Monica

Ok so I may have come up with a slightly odd solution to undo this LB situation. That is to let myself like CD again. Errr.... I guess to be honest those 2 ideas kinda just lined up since I may actually just be liking CD again. I know, its nuts!! He does drive me nuts. The little things he do sure leaves big impressions on me.

Remember that list I made of trying to figure out if he could like me or not. Well that's like starting over again. Its just are they signals or my imagination? I'll name a few that has happened since I re-joined the department.

1.) He's been teasing me a lot and kept saying my name as if I was getting in trouble but that's just his way of telling me what tasks to do. And damn, as soon as I walk away after receiving instructions from him, I can't help but smile. (Hence the title of this post)
2.) When I'm trying my best not to look at him because #1 I don't want it to be obvious that I'm aware of his presence and #2 so that I look like I'm 100% focused on my job; that's like when he randomly helps me out with whatever I'm working on. Its like he knows that's when I'm the most vulnerable to his effects.
3.) The small conversation he initiates. Yes, him. This goes in part with #2 where I'm trying my best to sorta ignore him (i.e. play it cool). Then outta nowhere he'd work beside me and make small talks. FYI, he's a pretty private kinda person so small talks are kinda rare with him.

There's more obviously but I'm leaving this at that. I'm really just enjoying things being back to the way they were before the drama. Maybe coz the lead causes of the drama ain't there. But at this point, I don't see myself having a full on 100% crush on CD again. Like I said before, when we leave the company, I really feel like we'll never see each other anyway. So it would take a whole lot of universe ploy for us to ever come meet again after work.

Monday, 2 February 2015

Shitnizzz

It has began.

Shit.

Pardon the language.

But SHITTTT!!

I had a dream of the cuter guy whom I swear I see as a younger brother... which now I will call LB (for little brother). OMG! Knowing me, that's how I realize I have a crush on someone... if I dreamed about them.

And get this. A total of 3 dreams since my last post. Well the 3rd dream was iffy coz I referred to the guy as a big brother though I really feel it was LB.

NOOOOOOOOO!!

I can't... this guy.. no, this kid... he's too good to get caught up in my dramas.

HOW DO I UNDO THIS SHITNIZZZ BUSINESS?