The hype is over

Starting to feel burned out... like I've learned all that I can (at least the theoretical components). At the same time scared that I'm getting thrown out towards the real world very soon. Just 4 more days of classes and 6 more days of exam to be exact. Brain can't really handle any more information. Body isn't feeling like doing stupid last minute homework that could've been given to us 2-4 weeks ago when we were doing nothing.

Realizing I've got at least 1 more year to be fully licensed. Adding up the cost of each licensing exam and special training. Hoping against odds that I can make up for that cost and risking it all for a chance just to be "casual".

Ugh! My head hurts from going back and forth telling myself: you're almost there but at the same time am I really ever gonna get there.

2015 is going to be an expensive and trying year for sure. So I guess I'll look forward to 2016 instead.

[[Update: Sept 26, 2014]]
So my lab demonstrator just told me a couple of days ago that I got the highest mark so far on our error checking exercise. Then the next day she told me that my preceptor for my practicum emailed her to tell her how impressed she (the preceptor) was by me. My lab demonstrator basically just gave a really good reference about me and my preceptor practically told my lab demonstrator that she wants to hire me, even though we've only chatted on the phone.

God is good! I really need this job and hope that its everything I hope it to be.

Couch Potato

Like I've said before, I don't like exercising. I avoid it at all cost. As soon as my body temperature rises, I get all puke-ish from inducing a migraine. I've managed to lose weight from changing my diet and eating smaller portions than usual. But ever since school started, I've gained almost 10 lbs back. It's coz I'm now awake during normal hours and can't sleep my hunger off like I used to. Plus I'm jacked up on sugar and caffeine just to stay awake in class. Then I eat more to keep my tummy from embarrassingly growling at me while at work or in class.

Now that practicum is a month away, I'd like to nominate myself for my own health and fitness challenge. Since I won't have homework to deal with and no actual work to go to after practicum, I think I'll take my 2 precious months trying to lose most of that 10 lbs I gained. Its gonna be difficult for someone like me to actually follow through any exercise regiment so lets just say I'll be having numerous Zumba sessions with my X-box. Maybe even fit in some squat sessions; I definitely need more butt.

I'm currently 15-20 lbs away from my ideal weight. If I miraculously managed to lose that much before the end of this year then I'll definitely treat myself to a vacation next year.