An introvert's diet plan

This probably isn't the healthiest of any diet plan. Heck, its not even a plan. It sorta happened by chance.

But before I start let me say that I am now 25lbs lighter than my heaviest weight ever!!

The first 15lbs I lost while living and working abroad. A combination of can't read ingredients in foreign language = can't cook = can't eat a lot. And also the work part exhausting to me the point that I'd rather sleep than eat.

The next 10lbs I lost here after I've moved back and got my new job. It's much more physical and it's probably the reason why I lost that much weight in 2 months (in comparison to the 15lbs I lost in a year).

I'd also like to point out that I don't exercise at all. I avoid it all cost. Its gotten to a point where any major exercise causes me to be nauseous. Like on my first month back here, I went on a mini hike with my best friend. It was all good and dandy... till I went home. My body temperature got so high triggered a massive migraine and I just had a pukefest.

So now, you must be wondering how I lost that weight. Well, like I said, it's by chance. It's all sleep! Sounds like a dream right? But hey, its working for me. You see, as an introvert, I can afford to sleep as long as I want. I only wake up for work, or when my own brain has had too much sleep already. I pretty much only eat during breaks at work and lately I can't even finish my packed meals (which is usually leftover from a previous meal). On my days off though, or when I do have to socialize, more eating is involved. But because I haven't seen my friends for a while (not just coz of my schedule but because of their own too), I haven't been eating out as much.

My uncle once told me that you just gotta get your stomach to shrink. It's kinda like the stomach staple minus the staple part. And I think that's exactly what's happening here. When I do eat, there's still a fair share of junk food. And I'm glad I don't have to cut that off. I just gotta eat them in proportions.

Anyway, I'm worried coz there'll be less shift for work after the holidays. So how does an introvert like me get exercise without really exercising? Guess we'll find out once we've crossed that bridge. But for now, I gotta maintain what I lost.

PS: 20lbs more and I'll reached my ideal weight.

NBIL - Never Been in Love

So here's a topic I rarely share.. just coz people tend to think it can't possibly be true. But yes, I have never been in love. Call it lame, fear of rejection, or commitment issues... whatever you want, its still true. I've never had a boyfriend, gone on a "real" date or been kissed. I'm a bit old school and would like to have been dated first before getting kissed (or going in a relationship for that matter). Then you realize I'm 24 years old, so you probably think its pathetic.

I've had my fair share of crushes, though those don't count as the real deal. I do get the same giddyness whenever I see the guy I'm crushing on. I like how I can be restless just thinking about seeing him the next day. But even I know its not love. Because the part where I want him to love me back, its not in that equation. I haven't met a guy who I wished loved me back. Just guys who I know are darn right amazing and would make some other girl really lucky.

I've tried figuring out why I am the way I am. Heck, even my best friend couldn't answer why when her boyfriend asked why I was single (btw, I so take it as a compliment when a guy wonders why I'm single). Here's what I keep telling myself, especially during my school days:

I do not need the drama during my most stressful period of my life where I am discovering what I want in life but somehow balancing that with what I need to do in life such as school, work, family and other commitments.

But now that school is over, I can actually afford the drama. The down side of having avoided it till now is that I have no clue how to deal with it. Not that those who have started dating since elementary have conquered the dating field. However, it'd still be great to have gotten over some drama jitters and know how to cruise my way around this and perhaps avoid some bullshit on my windshield.

I refuse to feel bad about me though. I do think everything happens for a reason and according to some cosmic timing as well. So some people fall in love early, some late. All that matters is that I know I'm not immune to love.

Here's to all who's in love, has loved and will be in love. May happiness be all around us!